Most Americans however feel that they're special because they're thoughts are very deep and they have an inner glow about them. For most people who think that, it's simply not true. Everyone would like to think that there's something magical about their existance, something that is their own that no one else knows. The sad truth is, who you are on the outside is who you are, there's no one else on the inside. I'm not talking about undercover agents here or something like that where you pretend to be something you're not. I'm talking your day to day life is that. You may have some secret desires or passions that you don't let anyone else know about, that doesn't change who you are, it just gives a more complete picture. If someone were to ask you what reprents you as a person, I doubt you'd pick something from your secret life that no one else knows about. Even if you did, what does it say about you that you leave out your mundane existance in who you are when that's who you are, most fo the time anyway.

We'd all like to think that deep down inside us is what we really are, and no one really knows the real you, but the truth may be your friends know you better than you do yourself. They know how you'll react, they know what you want, they may not know about a few things, but even if they mean the world to you they don't mean squat to your friends, cause they know who you are really. You may be a different person when you're alone by yourself, but that's everyone. Humans are a social creature, our true persona gets released when we're around company. When we're alone, we act different cause there's no one else there to interact with. Left alone, you are likely to have pursuits and interests that you don't share with others, because if you did you'd be doing it with them and not concerned about revealing it.

The way I see it, as it is with all these essays, is that if you can't reveal it to others around you, it's not important to you. If it was, why hide it? Embarrasment? Is that who you really are? A person who's afraid of what others think? If it truelly meant that much to you, you'd seek out others to share it with. Even if you have your own secret garden, if you don't let someone else into it with you, you'll never realize that having a little place to your own is nice, but having it together with someone else is even better. You shouldn't have to run away from others, the key is finding the people you drift towards without trying to hard. If it feels good, do it, and don't be afraid to admit it.

As always, that's how I see it, but it may not be true for you